I hate myself – self-hatred spirit leads to depression Teenagers that say “I hate myself so much”. Many teenagers live with emotional pain and self-inflict themselves to deal with emotional pain and depression. As you can see on these images they say I hate myself so much. When you don’t love who you are or see who you are in Christ, your serotonins go down causing depression. Touch of God is a healing ministry, deliverance ministry and healing through deliverance.